I’m happy to say that I’m sharing again today.  Did this layout on Friday with Michelle at Scrapbook Tree.  I don’t even want to tell you how long I’ve had that brown flower ribbon that is on there.  OMG.  Just last week I pulled it out and it was too much for what I was doing and I said to Michelle, “I’m never gonna use this!”  Of course she told me I would.  This coming from the girl that can’t bear to part with any of her supplies usually, so her opinion is expected. 

The wood tile I used on there has a sticker on top, which I sanded on the edges and then inked.  Again I can’t tell you how long I’ve had that either!  It’s embarrassing really, lol.

This post is an early one.  It’s 2:48am right now and for some reason I’m up.  I’ve been taking ambien for the last few days.  Seems like I can’t ever get to sleep on the days that my Grandma is in the hospital.  I’m not really worried I don’t think, after this battle, which has gone on for so very long now, I think I may be used to that part.  I do make sure the phone is at my bedside, just in case I get a phone call.  But I’m not as far as setting out my clothes to be ready at a moments notice.  Hard to explain the thoughts that go through my mind.  But I’m a peace with it and am just riding it out.  So I’m not certain what it is that keeps me awake.  Maybe the wondering whats going on.  Anyway, so I take the ambien and generally it helps.  That being said, its nearly 3am and I’m up, doing this!  I guess it didn’t work so great this time around. And in honor of 3am, it will be a little longer post. 

Yesterday was Dennys MOPS meeting, which I blogged about yesterday.  I have to say that after sitting there listening to some of the women asking questions that mostly started with, “How do I get my husband to…,” I was left feeling very lucky to have Denny for a husband.  I heard a lot of the women complain that they didn’t get any validation for all the things they do as wives and mothers, and how much they wanted and needed that.  We all want to be appreciated, and I’m sure they all are, but it’s nice to hear it.  Well, I can honestly say that I hear it all the time.  Denny tells me frequently that he is lucky to have me, and comes home at the end of the day and tells me the house looks great.  On some of those days I have to tell you that I feel like all I’ve gotten done is dusted or vacuumed.  I still get a pat on the back, and it’s great.

I really left that meeting last night knowning that Denny and I have a fantastic marriage.  I’m not saying we don’t disagree, we do, but an arguement around here happens rarely.  We seem to have something once a year that escelates into a big production, and then back to normal.  Denny is very tolorant of me, and some of the things I say and do on a bad day, and I am of him.  It is what it is, and yelling about it isn’t really going to make it better.  I tell him what he’s doing that is pushing my buttons and that’s the end of it.  He does the same with me.  I’m of the school that if I don’t tell you what you’ve done that bothers me, then you are just going to keep doing it.  So I think we stop they cycle for the most part before it starts.

There is a lot of back story to Denny and I, so I was in a spot from the beginning that I was greatful to have him in my life.  I think we appreciate eachother more becuase of the road we took to get where we are.  Maybe that’s why the way he is with the validation.  Who knows?  Whatever the reason, we work!  And frankly, there was an awful lot of things those women said last night that I just couldn’t identify with, and for that, I’m grateful too!!

Now, something funny.  Dylan has started being more social at school.  He has a friend that called him afterschool yesterday and Dilly was geeked about it.  The kid is terrible on the phone.  We try to keep him off it frankly.  He screams into it as he holds the handset right up to his lips, paying no attention at all to the speaker that should be next to his ear.  No matter how many times you try to break him of it… poof, I turn around and he’s doing it again.  It’s the, “What?  I can’t hear you.  Can you hear me now?” that usually turn my head to find him at it.

I digress.  He is on the phone and I pretty much leave him to it, when I hear, “Well you can come over right now.”  I’m now jumping up and waving telling him no, we were on our way out soon, when he hung up the phone.  I figured it was pretty safe to assume that wasn’t going to come to anything.  If it were me, and it has been before with Ethan, I’d call the other parent and confirm that having him over was really ok.  As all you moms know, our kids can sometimes just volunteer!  I didn’t get a call from the friends mom or dad, so I let it go.  A little while later a ring of the doorbell and here is Dillys friend and his dad.  HA HA.  I was embarassed and I had to turn them away.  Again we were leaving.  The best I could do was invite him over to play today.  With everything going on I hadn’t intended for a play date.  I didn’t get to go to the hospital yesterday because of the meeting with Denny, so today was my plan.  Not so sure that will work out now!  Kids!

Enjoy your Wednesday.  Rain and in the 50’s here today!

~j